run on sentence.

She wakes up feeling more tired each day. Reaches for her water, takes a sip. I don’t understand who I am anymore or what I need to do to become the person I would want to be. I am not only lost but beside myself. I miss things, without even knowing what I’m truly missing. I know all I have now is to go to the only thing that’s safe.





Things that been inspiring me and making me feel more alive:

Fresh flowers, water colors, the scent of lavender, soy lattés with two raw sugars, watching Audrey Hepburn, life stories, vintage wallpaper, steaming baths with lots of bubbles.

nothing unusual.

currently desiring basic white and purple tee’s, black pants/jeans, purple shorts, menswear blazers, ruffle bag, and a neat ring.

reflections

Looking back on 2008 I don’t know if Ill miss much. I don’t think anything really was accomplished. I am in need of a new year and hopefully it will bring something great. I know that none of this is going to get done if I don’t change. I need to push myself..

Draw. Read. Paint. Write. Learn another language. Build a wardrobe. Make a portfolio for M.A.C. Move out. Give school everything I have (for once). Spend more time with people I love. Learn how to cook. Sew everyday. Paint. Design anything. Go for walks. Relax and stop worrying. Start piano lessons again. Drink less coffee. No gossip. Listen more. Learn patience. Travel. Be okay with being alone.


I know I have more…but this is a start, right? I will change.. Not only because I want to. I NEED TO. Happy New Year!