it's giving time

it's that time of year every one. feeling thankful. drinking hot drinks to keep warm. snuggling extra close at night. gift giving.  along with a million other things. i think this little moon and star earring set would be a cute gift for who you love more than the moon and all the stars in the sky. so cheesy but i thought the cuteness factor won that battle. 

the simplicity.  

buy here

bright hopes

before,

closed dark skies 

endless hopes

 

after,

open bright skies

still hope

still hope

still hope

photos-  rosemary and thyme blog

be happy.

you're here for a short time.

and only one time.

just be.

pictures- photo booth silliness

life: on the go

1. work

2. daily cup

3. focus

4. chocolate malt

5. his face

unspectacular but SPECTACULAR

waking up with your arms around me

life felt safe

enjoying a cup of coffee before work

life felt warm

work

life felt chaotic

the train ride home

the feeling of the day's wear and tear along my bones

cleaning the apartment a little

life felt cold

talking to you before sleep

safe. warm. happy.

as i drink my cold coffee and reflect on the day that is now the past. i didn't accomplish too much. but, enough. each day is spectacular without actually being spectacular. each day i am one step closer to becoming. becoming whole.

life: on the go

1. sewing room

2. date night- burgers!

3. date night- ferris wheel

4. morning coffee with a donut

it comes in all forms

inspiration

Miranda July:

I'm inspired by..

small things. while living in berlin, i found a gum-ball machine that dispensed really weird items like a skull-and-crossbones earring set and a little rubber baby- never the same thing twice. i imagined a whole story about the person who was filling the machine.

she's inspiring. read this as well.

source- the oprah magazine

and..

dear you,

all this quietness, only means one thing, happiness.

a lot of things will be changing around here at lavender and honey. this past year i have learned more about myself. i have learned that i care more about other people and their happiness before i even stop to think about myself. all the sadness has now vanished (well, not all, but most of it). for awhile i was just hanging on by a string and just existing. i was comfortable with that. the hurting. the sadness. so accepting of being walked on. i didn't want to have happiness because it felt unreachable after all these years. after losing my mom, not being able to attend school, attending cosmetology school and having it be a pretty bad experience overall.. and being alone without really being alone. well, it has left me with feeling comfortable with being sad. i wound't take back those experiences because they have shaped me into the person i am today. and who am i today you ask?

well, today, i am happier. i am enrolled in school again. i have a special someone (that might be the sweetest person in this world). i am excited for everything that is ahead. and really guys, really. this is real. AND. big things are coming.

love,

angella

ps

things are going to start feeling whole around here. just wait.

where?

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
— Bob Marley"

i just want to find him.

full and whole

i'm always talking about finding substance. talking about becoming full, whole, something more. i'm always thinking that i'm not living but merely existing. i'm always feeling a little uneasy, like i'm one step behind the rest. i'm always seeing the potential of myself and thinking that's enough. but, that's not enough. i want to be.

today i am half the person i want to be.

on some days i loose the vision of the other half of a person. but, today, i sought out the other half. i was productive. i got inspired. i felt whole again.

also, one step is better than two.

photo: taken with my phone

real and full

this will become something more, one day.

one day when i find that balance between 15 hour work days and friendly faces (and some not so friendly faces). and one million other things. my brain feels a little bit exhausted. but, i am beyond excited with the amount of growth and life i've been experiencing. i cannot wait to share the stories. the substance is real. and full.

worthy of love

inspiration monday. i leave you with a short, in the moment, passage. i love writing words that make little sense sometimes but have deep meaning. writing has become a huge release.

two years of being alone, without being alone

faking the solitude

take a deep breath

your heart will not explode

it is growing

becoming more caring, accepting, and worthy.

happy fourth of july everyone! i hope everyone has a wonderful day.

picture- here

a faint city

he faintly remembers

he faintly feels

he faintly sees

how much everything really means.

she needs a new city

a new start and yes, this time she might be smart

ps. i won't have a computer for a week or so! but, i am going to try to still update. have a wonderful night.

photo- here

once has to be enough

one smile. one hello. one glance.

that is enough. i don't need it all. i don't need much, anymore.

photo- here

everything i want

monday,

thank you for coming.

love, angella

photos- first three are from this wonderful site and the last one i'm not sure!