



8 smiles yesterday
a surprise hug
waking in the door and kitty purring for what seemed like an hour
3 new billy buttons on my windowsill in a green vase (recycled wine bottle)
a text message
dreaming about my new office nook in my new room (when shaun moves out)
dreaming about going back to school
dove coconut crème milk chocolate
season one of friends with kettle corn popcorn
listening to belle and sebastian
Thoughts jumbled up:
I want to be interesting (to myself and others) and I want to have substance. Lately, I have been putting myself down again (in my mind). I really wish I would stop doing that. It's really tampering with my spirit. I am only human (I have to keep saying in my head). ONE DAY AT A TIME. Things will really, really be okay, in the end. Where is this end? Why do I want to get there so bad. It's all silly to me. This life.. this journey, so silly. But, I do want, I want a lot. I want to be full. Full of life. Full of information. Full of love. Full of hope. Full of dreams. Full of experiences. Full of the need to give. Full of everything else in between.
photo- not mine! if you want credit, please let me know!







Lately I've been lost. I know what I need to do, yet can't get myself to do it? I've been over-thinking. I've been analyzing everything. Everything I do. Everything I say. I don't think it's a good way to live, nor do I want to spend so much time doing what I have been doing. How to move past this part in my life is something I need to eventually do and soon. I feel my heart beginning to ache more and more. The minutes turn into hours, the hours turn into days, days turn into weeks and the weeks turn into months. I have such a strong desire to go back to school and focus entirely on school. I just need that chance. This post means much more than school. I want to have fun on this journey. I want to have an adventure. With you.
Photo- My journal. Page scanned. I've been using it a lot lately.