im usually never late.

i just want to say merry christmas.

i just want to say happy new year.

I had huge plans to talk about how much I love the holidays. I love trees (christmas). I love colored lights. I love the smell of baked goods. I love just sitting in front of the tree completely silent and staring. I love the gift wrapping and the giving. I love the 'happiness' that it sometimes brings. The hot chocolate. The hot tea. The hot coffee. The love. The light. I love how it makes me realize how much I have.

I then went home. I love my small unconvetional family, I do. Sometimes though.. it leaves me feeling empty. Alone. Afraid. So..

i have been hiding the past few weeks.

i just want to say im sorry.

Feeling a bit lost. No direction. I think its the winter! A case of the winter blues. I think its time to step out and know that Im not alone. Ill never be. I have that small uncoventional family. And I have my friends. I have a lot.

Welcome 2011. I'm sorry I'm late.

A VERY BIG SORRY.

I wanted to say “sorry” for not blogging to my little gathering of readers and myself (because it’s one of my goals—to blog everyday). I have been terribly sick and haven’t left my bed—besides when going to work! A lot has been going on; I’ve had one of thee best birthdays one could ask for (thank you Dilyana). I think I’m beginning to see what good friends can do to your life. I am so thankful.

no updating plus aways inspired.

I really don't have my own computer right now.. explaining lake of updates!

one day I will be able to update update update.

until then...

Im thinking of a new name for this blog. something fresh.